这张 blogpost 要用华文来写，因为我校的男生是华文白痴。

今天，我负责监考一个很可怕的班。监考时，当我看着那班的学生，我不禁联想起一些不友善的形容词。身为教师的我是不应因该用有色的目光来对待学生们，但是如果你在街上看到这几名学生，我相信你也一定会有同感。

社会的人渣， 社会的败类。我真的是这样觉得。

我还算是蛮幸运的，我只负责教这班上的两名<>好学生。

他们更本不应该在读普通学术课程，他们其实应该到能够让他们学习一门技术的学院求学。他们对学术的科目根本没有兴趣，所以讨厌上学，并在课堂上捣乱，让教课的教师真拿他们没办法。

我国的教育制度真的是有问题啦。要不然问题学生就不会越来越多。

我当教师当得非常难过。

i will go insane one day and i can feel it nearing.

already i'm so haggard from the late nights i've put in trying to prepare better lessons. i even go back to school on saturdays to work. have i not tried hard enough?

my lessons are super boring now. can't think of creative ways to teach when half of the time i'm trying to get the class to just sit down quietly to listen. they seriously have very short attention spans. i'm really very tired shouting at them.

i have ideas to engage, but after all the fun, my students are too weak to know what are the points needed for examinations. drilling is still necessary. the students cannot just read notes and textbooks, they don't understand at all. if they say students are becoming smarter nowadays, i don't see it.

i will have to find a way to make the next chapter more interesting. luckily its rivers and coast, my favourite. God, please give the strength and the ability to endure what comes to me. i still want to become the good teacher that i thought i was in bowen and hope i will be in this new environment.